Undoing Crazy

Another update

Why do weekends go by so fast?  I can’t wait to retire, or at least find a job that I don’t dread going to everyday.

There’s several things I don’t like about my life right now. 1) my job. 2) the messiness of my area. 3) my lack of being a female. 4) all of my emotional issues that keep me from forming and keeping friendships. 5) living in the midwest. 6) my lack of money. 7) not writing even though I enjoy it. 8) not working out.

I suppose I’ll work on the thing that’s the easiest to change off hand and work on my room slowly but surely.  I need to take time out EVERYDAY to work on it.  Not just when I feel like. I think even just taking five minutes a day will make a big impact. Not as big as buckling down, but I’m just not that great at buckling down on things.

I’ll let you know the status of the clean up in the next couple of posts.


Feeling Up

Today is the first day in a long while I have actually felt, calm. For the most part, I’m really trying to limit my texting to G. I wanted to go two days without doing it or just wait for him to text me but I texted him telling him I was sorry I told him I hated him. Personally, I don’t think that counts, it was a three message exchange and it was done. I’ll give myself a pass.

I really need to get back in the pool, almost went today but I didn’t. I bought a mouth guard to train with the Roller Derby team by my parents house on Thursday. I need to call and make sure they are still having practice though due to the holiday.

Surprisingly, I’m not bitter about the upcoming holiday in which I’m reminded how many years I’ve spent single. I actually plan to post my favorite love songs on Facebook for all to enjoy.

Thanks for reading.

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